My never-ending battle with food.

Life sure has been busy lately. I do school, practice piano, practice music, do chores, go to piano lessons, go to volleyball practice, and go to volleyball games every week. Next week, I'll be leaving the house Monday (v-ball game), Tuesday (v-ball game), Wednesday (piano lesson... 45 min. away), and Thursday ( going to UCA and another v-ball game). And then we'll probably be going on a mandatory shopping trip next Saturday (not that that's not enjoyable).  We've had family staying with us for a couple days, so that's given us a little time to relax. This afternoon should be pretty fun. We're having even more family over for dinner. Daddy's grilling steaks, and we'll watch football, and hopefully build a fire in our outdoor fireplace for the first time!

But anyway, today I wanted to blog about something that's not very fun, but some of us are forced to do it.

...Dieting.

Diet. Probably one of my least favorite words. Do I like dieting? No. Do I like the idea of being thin? Yes. This is the battle I have been fighting for a long time, especially the past 3 or 4 years of my life. I've always loved food, a little too much really. And I'm not the skinny type. Those two things combined are not good. I probably started gaining weight when I was about 8 or 9. I went on my first diet when I was about 12, and I've started diets so many times since then. I normally do well for a couple weeks, and then it'll all just fall apart somehow.

So a week and a half ago, I started the Dukan diet. I've done Weight Watchers several times, but the fact that you can pretty much eat whatever you want proved to be too great of a temptation for me. The Dukan diet is a four phase diet, and it's essentially a high-protein, zero-carb diet. It's very, very strict. I've stuck with it, but, so far, I haven't lost all the weight that the man who invented the diet said I would. Last night, I read an article by a doctor who basically said that it was a fad diet and not to do it. That kinda depressed me. So, I talked to my  mom about it, and she advised me to expand the diet a little bit. I'm going to add in fruit, and one meal a week of whatever I want. (On the original diet, you don't get to eat anything you want until you reach your goal weight.)

Everybody has something they have to overcome in their life. For me, that thing is my weight. I'm not really mad that I'm not like other girls who eat whatever they want and stay thin. I really just try to look at it as a growing experience, an exercise in self-control. Self-control is one of the fruits of the spirit.

I'm tired of the girl on the outside not reflecting the girl on the inside. So I'm pushing through till I reach my goal this time. It'll be hard, but I know it'll be worth it.